There Really Is A Santa -- If You Know
Where To Look For Him
By Marige O'Brien
I believe in Santa Claus. I'm not a child, nor even passingly
young anymore. But as each year-end nears, and the stores begin
stocking strings of lights and tinsel, alerting us to the fact
that the holidays loom, I am gripped with a fever. And, perhaps
it's because this feeling is familiar that I begin to see the
truth. And the truth is, there really IS a Santa Claus.
Oh, sure. I groan as much as the next person when I first hear
holiday muzak in the stores. Maybe more so, having worked in the
restaurant business for some years where Christmas muzak -- day
in and day out and, Oh!, Even extra hours of it! -- turns
once-beloved melodies into an endurance test.
And I grouse about the endless chores: The shopping and wrapping
and decorating and card sending. But whenever my intellect
begins to question the validity of all these efforts, one stark
memory stops it cold.
It was the first time I caught a glimpse of Santa Claus.
It was the first Christmas after my parents separated. A bleak
time, to be sure. My mother had cautioned me repeatedly not to
expect much for Christmas, that it was all she could do to keep
us fed, clothed and sheltered (this was before the improved
alimony and child-support laws).
Perhaps it was my lowered expectations. I was surprised as I
found a new kind of joy in our meager decorations (less of them
made each one all the more precious); anticipation in the
buying, making and wrapping of the gifts my combined birthday
and allowance money afforded (probably all of $10-15 at the
time); and the fun of helping with baking cookies and other
holiday treats.
But most of all, I was shocked when I felt the peace and love of
the season overwhelm me as, one evening, I watched my mother
quietly writing Christmas cards by candle light. What it was
about that moment, I don't know. Except that it was the first
time I saw Santa Claus.
I saw him in my mother's quiet determination, despite all, to
look past her own troubles and celebrate the season. That moment
will be forever etched in my memory as one of the most beautiful
moments I've ever experienced. It was Santa, as close to being
in the flesh, as possible.
Over the years, I've become adept at recognising Him. I see Him
in every mom & dad who stays up on Christmas eve, struggling
with bike or other last-minute gift assembly; I see it in toy
donation bins filled to overflowing; I see it in the coins
tossed to Salvation Army Volunteers and, indeed, in the
volunteers themselves.
When I worked in restaurants, it was part of my job to sell the
gift certificates. At first I moaned for the added
responsibility, especially at such a generally busy time of the
year-- until I was surprised at how often I saw Santa in the
faces of the people buying those gift certificates. People who
had gone out of their way, who spent just a moment to think of
Uncle Henry or Mom & Dad. Whatever their motives or reasons,
the important thing is, they took the time to think of others,
to do for others, to climb out of the quagmire of their lives
long enough to see others and reach out to them.
Like many parents, I used to take my kids to the mall to see
Santa. Imagine my surprise when I found Santa in every harried
shopper, every over-worked store clerk, as well as every child's
face. Some people avoid the mall during the Christmas season. I
think that's a tragic missed chance to see Santa and I make sure
to go there as often as possible. Think of it: just about every
single person there is buying for or thinking of someone else.
Isn't that a miracle?
It's taken me a long time to see Santa. Just as it's taken me a
while to understand that it really is better to give than
receive. Because, in giving, we think of others and forget our
own troubles for a little while. Plus, giving is the best way to
appreciate how lucky we are.
Oh, yeah, I believe in Santa. And that Santa can perform
miracles. Remember that Christmas when I first saw Santa? That
Christmas morning I was overwhelmed by the gifts I received.
Sure, some people (humbugs, mostly) would quickly point out that
I simply expected less -- and that my parents probably felt
guilty and over-compensated. To that, I can only say, dissecting
a miracle brings one no closer to understanding it or
experiencing it first-hand. But, mostly, I think it only shows
how much people can do when they decide to make an effort.
Because that morning WAS a miracle-- and the first time I
believed in Santa's Magic.--mo
